Do I go to the Evolutions dinner thing? Lots of drinking. How do I get out of it? Don’t want to be a party poop. I could go to Charles’ work dinner and movie instead. They’re seeing “Knocked up” –hmmm, think that’s a sign?
Feeling better today. Less underneath it all. As if I’m getting used to the nausea. Maybe the caffeine thing is adjusting too.
This whole thing has also been an exercise in thinking only of today. I can’t count on everything working out -still might lose it and all. The whole not-telling-people thing reminds me of that each day. And yet, I can’t go thinking it’s all not going to happen. Just need to be with the moment now. Oh yeah, one with the nausea.